It has only been a couple of days with out you. It feels like a lifetime. Our entire world revolved around you, my dear, and now there are constant reminders every where we look. It hasn't sunken in yet. It doesn't feel real. I keep looking over expecting to see your tiny feet sticking out of your rock n play, happily rocking back and forth. I keep expecting to reach over and pick you up, only the chair is empty.
When I get in the car, or turn on the radio, every song reminds me of you. Things like 'knocking on heavens door' come on, and I can't help but think that is your way of saying hello. Please say hello more often, my love.
Today is mommy's birthday. My only wish would be to hold you in my arms, just one more time. To see your sweet smile that lit up your entire face. To hear that silent little giggle you had, when you were the most happy. How will I go on with out those things?
Today I have to say the hardest thing I will ever have to say. Today I have to tell your brothers that you are not coming home. How do you get the strength to say something like that to your children? They wished on stars for you, sweet girl. You were loved and adored from day one. I know their world is coming crashing down today, and it breaks my heart.
I don't know how we will get through this. But I know that we will, some how. Little miss, you taught us more in your short 2 years, than we could have learned in a lifetime. You were our little miracle, a special gift from above. I am forever grateful to have know you, love you, and call you my daughter.
Mommy misses you, Sassy.